I had a dream with Kelli in it and murdoc last night... it was weird.
I thought she and i would be better by now... Its so weird that I'm the one that was hurt... she admitted to being a bitch and I'm trying so hard to be her friend... yet she just doesn't care.
What is it about me? what am i doing that makes me so easy to leave?
why am i so easy to end friendships with?
why is it so hard for me to let go, but others have no problems with it?
I miss kelli and i miss murdoc.
I hate kelli for hurting me.
I hate amanda.
i hate everyone that hurt me.
i hate that i am so easy to hurt.