rainout

its been an interesting week... todd has been away and its my last week at UR. randy makes jokes about me getting fired... people are sayin they're really upset... but I hate it... Lord knows I love attention, but I feel fguilty and I feel like it isn't a big deal.

tomorrow is my last day. last time this happened I could. not. talk. I was crying at the cross over with todd...

I start at healthnet on monday and i'm looking forward to it.
of course i'm reminded of the fact this isn't my dream... but what is? who knows maybe after healthnet for a while I might be able to get into a company where i'm REALLY helpung people.

we shall see...