To be, or not to be!

That is the question...
Its been a week full of a lot of soul searching... well, not soul searching... just thoughtful meditation.

Unless you see me on a regular basis, or you see a random post on Facebook or twitter and ask me about it, you may not know that I am in the process of working toward something awesome.  I've applied to three graduate programs and am patiently waiting to hear where I'm going!

I've decided/discovered that I want to be a math teacher more than I've ever wanted to be anything else ever in my life!  Luckily I decided this before this semester of classes started so I was able to take a couple math classes.  I'm currently in Algebra & Trig and Calculus 2.

Anyway, I have been accepted to University of Bridgeport and am waiting to hear back from Sacred Heart University and University of New Haven.  UNH was my first choice, SHU my 2nd and UB my 3rd.  This week I had my admission interview at SHU and I feel confident that I will be accepted.  As for UNH, I still have to take the Praxis II exam before I can be considered for admission, since the exam is only offered 6 times a year, I have to way till January for that.

Thanks to my dear friend, and teacher, DW, I was able to talk out all my thoughts and concerns and blah blah blah that I have going on in my head.  She helped me see that I don't have to wait for UNH, SHU is a great school and closer!  You know, sometimes I get something in my head and its what I want, and its hard to see passed it.  I'm grateful to have people in my life that can help me step back and see the bigger picture.  thats what its all about, the bigger picture.  The sooner I start school, the sooner I can graduate and the sooner I get to be a teacher!

What amazes me is that I dropped out of college when I was 19 years old, just months before my 2nd semester was over.  I dropped out and said I would never go back to school.  Within months I was taking one class at HCC and continued to take occasional classes at community college until I decided I had to go back to school and get my bachelors.

The girl who has ADD and thought she was dumb and did mediocre in high school, graduated college (at 27 years old) Cum Laude with a GPA of 3.64. She then went on to take extra math classes and continue on to grad school and will one day be a teacher.

I'm a little sad I didn't know what ADD really was in high school, I'm sad I wasn't given the help I needed then to do better in school, but this was the path I was meant to take. I've done a lot of things in my life and experienced a lot of people and I love everyone in my life (well, we all know I'm a lover).  A big part of me wishes I'd made this happen sooner, but then so many other things in my life would be different, maybe some for the better, but a lot of the worse.

Wow.. did I go on a tangent or what?!

Anyway, if you made it this far, thanks for reading! And wish me luck!