I woke up yesterday and didn't think anything of it. But on my drive into work EVERY driver pissed me off, EVERY turn there was an annoyance, EVERY thing I saw made me want to scream!
I knew something was wrong because as much as I hate to drive, I'm rarely in a mood like that.
All day I was miserable... all day!
When I got into work, Bill asked me how I was and asked if I was grumpy, I figured that described me well enough enough so I agreed... His response? He came over to my cube and gave me a private showing of the Friday Dance! It was awesome.
But it didn't last. I came back from lunch - which I spent trying to nap in the health room, which didn't work at ALL - still grumpy. and by 4 p.m. I couldn't stop crying. I went to the bathroom and the health room trying to hide. Which didn't help when Melissa was in my cube trying to figure out why I was so quiet. I was depressed, sad and was being quiet because I was tired of all the comments they make when I add my 2 cents to things.
I need to get off my ass and find a therapist. I thought I could 'do it alone' but it's just NOT working. It probably didn't help that A lot of things have been going wrong, people canceling plans, people not being as nice as normal. ugh... BLAH!
GAH! I need to snap out of it... but anyone that has ever battled with depression knows that you cant just "snap out f it" when you're depressed. This morning I'm okay, not so depressed. but once I start my day it will eventually hit me. I just need to keep busy. I'm going to eat some grub then head to the gym... that should help!