lost

So I'm still a bit lost.
I think i want to get my MFA in painting. then i will decide where i want to go after. i don't want to think too far in advance, especially since I can't decide on shit.
If I do want to do it then i need at GOOD body of work. about 20 paintings. I have till December (let's say) to decide where i want to apply and have the paintings done.

"Don't have a fall back, because if you do, you'll fall back."
I think so.
what is my problem???